Plan

So I realized that I need to make a plan. Without one I am set for failure. I can always justify food because I have no end goal, end date, end anything. So after reading tons of stuff I've decided to do a fast. As of now I will only go until the 25th. Only four days, but I made the dumb mistake of telling people I had this eating disorder and that's the day they all come back from Easter break. Hopefully this time without them will allow me to find ways to hide my lack of food. But yes, nothing but water (and because of an outside plethora of health problems, possibly the occasional coffee or juice - although only if I have to fear passing out in front of others... it's really annoying to get shipped off to the hospital that many times, people overreact like crazy) for the next four days. I have never done anything like this and so I am a tad nervous. I may have to research a lot on it.

Other than that I've been watching videos like Thin (which is amazing, check it out on youtube) and Super size me on hulu. I can tell you, reverse thinspiration at its finest. Absolutely disgusting. Def something to watch if you want to pick up that piece of food. And I'm working on a ton of school work (chem major's have absolutely no rest) and currently working on a presentation on Lady Gaga. Now there is some inspiration to not eat. Have you seen her? She is so tiny, so fit, so thin and so perfect. I'm just hoping all this work keeps me preoccupied and not thinking of food.

Stay strong everyone.